I really couldn’t think of anything to blog about this week without sounding fake. Because this week, and for the past few weeks really, I haven’t been feeling my usual happy, positive, confident self. People always think I’m happy 24/7 and it couldn’t be further from the truth.
But you know when you have a really bad day? That has been my entire few weeks. At first I thought it was just a bad day. Then it was a few more bad days. Then it became a few weeks, and now I’m thinking this can’t just be labelled ‘a bad day’ anymore.
In terms of my family, I love them to bits and they are my best friends. We are all so close and I couldn’t wish for a better family.
My personal life is always fabulous and nothing to complain about.
My work life however, could definitely be improved. I’m not going to go through the ins and outs of my job, but it isn’t what I saw myself doing. I have a degree in Criminology and as much as I loved studying, I had dreams of doing something. Don’t ask me what though, because I knew that I wanted to do something, but I had no idea what it was.
I feel like I’m waiting for something to happen to me in my life. I know many of you will read this and say ‘why are you waiting, go out there and make it happen!’.
I just don’t feel that confident anymore to be able to go out into the big bad world. Believe me, I’m trying very hard to not excuse my behaviour, because I feel like a total pansy even as I’m typing this up.
Maybe thats why I’m trying harder with my blog, because this is my way of offloading and feeling less stressed. I just don’t know anymore. Even though I feel stressed with this as well because I can’t help but think I’m not putting as much effort in blogging because I feel stressed with everything going on with my work life. It’s like a circle of stress!
Sorry that this wasn’t more of a positive post, but it would’ve been wrong any other way.
I hope you have all had a fabulous Sunday, and thanks for listening to my moan.